Back from exile..............

Wow!!......... I cant believe that my last post was a month and a half back.......Time sure does fly... I realised that i havent written for so long when my friend called me and threatned yet again that she will have me for breakfast, lunch and dinner (yes yes ....... same best buddy......same threat ...... only this time i think she meant it .............. n thats really scaring me). Thats the thing about girls......... if guys wanna threaten someone then we show some kind of intimidating action -- raised voice, fist show, stuff like that......... but gals can threaten you in the softest possible tone too.....amazing how they do it. Anyways back to me, yes i have returned from exile and things have been happening to me in a faster pace. I am regaining contacts with people i lost touch with.

I have been getting lesser sleep off late (work has made its mind to screw my biological sleep cycle). Life on the whole is pretty much screwed up in the same way it was a few months earlier .... nothing new there i guess. One of the best things i think happenin right now to me is the new gat that i got.... now i can play and sing all those great songs (ok ok........ i can try.......). Well its the begining of another weekend....... and im jus getting up..... my hair is standing in all possible direction and more .......like i slept on an electric bed..... and i have to go about my business now ...... I will write more (promise!!). will catch y'all later then.

Hastalavista

It's not over..........................

Every once in a while comes a song that has this tune that you cant get outta your head, has some great meaning ful lyrics which you can totally relate to. the latest in the genre of such songs for me is Chris Daughtry's 'Its not over'.... It is in all essence following the rock genre........ guitars & drums if you will ........ but also sends across a message, A message for survival, a message to stand your ground, a message that says never give up. It is one of those rare songs that I feel is a pleasure to listen to........ read on the lyrics to understand what I'm talkin about-------

I was blown away.

What could I say?

It all seemed to make sense.

You've taken away everything,

And I can't deal with that.

I try to see the good in life,

But good things in life are hard to find.

We'll blow it away, blow it away.

Can we make this something good?

Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.

I'll try to do it right this time around.

It's not over.

'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.

This love is killing me,

But you're the only one.

It's not over.

Taken all I could take,

And I cannot wait.

We're wasting too much time

Being strong, holding on.

Can't let it bring us down.

My life with you means everything,

So I won't give up that easily.

I'll blow it away, blow it away.

Can we make this something good?

'Cause it's all misunderstood.

Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.

I'll try to do it right this time around.

It's not over.

'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.

This love is killing me,

But you're the only one.

It's not over.

We can't let this get away.

Let it out, let it out.

Don't get caught up in yourself.

Let it out.

Let's start over.

I'll try to do it right this time around.

It's not over.

'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.

This love is killing me,

But you're the only one.

It's not over.

Let's start over.

It's not over, yeah...

This love is killing me,

But you're the only one.

It's not over.

It does send across the pain and the torment ......... but as it says...... Its not over. Nothing is over till we can still fight back and make it all worth living for. Life itself would be meaningless if we couldnt fight for ourselves and stand for what we believe in. So take a cue from the song 'cos it is really beautiful and always keep that survival instincts burning......... remember .............Its not over...................

Drawing a blank

I have been up too early in the morning and i have spent about an hour thinking about what to write in the blog (I have nothing better to do in the morning if I'm up on my own ........ I'm up since 4 a.m.). Finally I have come to the point where I know for sure that I positively, certainly, absolutely cannot write a blog so early in the morning. Why? ....... Cos my brains are still asleep I guess and my body is waaaaaay too lazy to wake it. And now I possibly cant return to sleep cos I just cant do that ........ So all in all this whole situation is weird and confusing. Why did I get up so early anyway? ...... that too on my own. Ahh!!! music!! ............ thats always there to rescue me. kinda weird feeling when your brains dont work but the body seems raring to go .......... dunno where ..... but somewhere I guess. So off I go ....... will write in with more sanity once my brains wake up ...........

In Pursuit Of Moksh

The previous entry talked more about the crazier part ........ I'm hoping that this blog entry will balance the karma thing, you know ...... yin and yang....... equilibrium and all that. The craziness in the world around me has consumed me to an extent that I have taken up the thought of Moksh pretty seriously (yeah! right!). I'm still searching for the Bodhi tree though. At this critical time I turn to the one thing that gives me immense peace and a higher level of tranquility, which is music. Rock music isn't considered exactly to be the kind that people would listen to and meditate, but hey!! This is my way of finding Moksh. Its more like the Mick Jagger song-------

And I drove across the desert

I was in my four wheel drive

I was looking for the Buddha

And I saw Jesus Christ

He smiled and shrugged his shoulder

And lit a cigarette

Said jump for joy

Make some noise

Remember what I said

Hey joy

Love you bring

Oh joy

Make my heart sing

Oh joy

Joy in everything

Joy joy joy oh joy

Joy joy joy oh joy

So here's hoping that I find true Joy ........... more updates later .......... till then let me meditate

(P.S. I guess the Buddha haircut will enhance my image too ......... hmmmm....... maybe i should go and get one :))

Realm of the crazed.......

Well I have been writing here after a pretty long time....... and the fact of the matter is tht I have been busy off late (yes i am!! ....... dont u dare snicker)... My best friend just threatned to kill me and drink my blood if I didnt write a blog (Kidding!...... She is a real sweetheart). But things aint working for the best in my little crazed paradise that is my world....... I have to resort to writing blogs thru some stupid software cos the antivirus blocked my access and this really is a very lame way to get around the problem .......... I cant even press the 'Enter' button on the keyboard cos nothing really happens on the screen....... this really sucks ......... but im looking at the brighter side and am trying to create a record of writing a blog with no paragraphs (can anyone contact the Guiness Book people please? ........ genius working here) ....... By now you would have realized that the sunny side of my life is as bright as a fused torchlight in a pitch dark cave ......... and my complexion doesnt really help me in any way..... the Title pretty much gives a very brief n clear idea of what my mind is like ........ this is what goes on in the mind of a real genius i guess ........... self-boasting and ego-pumping must be a sure-shot sign or proof that i really am crazed ........ well not the lunatic kinda crazed ........ the run-of-the-mill crazed types rather ........ and i have even started getting projects that relate totally to it .......... i guess the next step for me is to find a bodhivruksha and sit and meditate beneath that ........ maybe im the next Buddha around ........ the rains are still hanging around & the weather doesnt help lighten my mood either ....... isnt October supposed to be a hot season??? ........ we are nearing October and the clouds seem darker than ever. That just about justifies my idea the someone is out there conspiring against me (hey!! im weird n crazy remember? ....... what kinda statements did you expect me to make). Sheesh the rains arent even letting up for a second ........ and all this is because im not carrying an umbrella. By the time I reach home i have to shake the water off like a drenched cat ........ thank goodness i dont have so much of hair on my body ........ the very thought of it scares the living daylights outta me ........ On a more generic note, the city bid farewell to one of the favored deities of the city. The Elephant God has left the building. And yes India did win the 20-20 world cup after all (This was jus an update on those who are lazy like me & dont read the newspapers ....... dont worry ...... i didnt either ...... Mom told me all this). Anyways I will write more blogs today when i get the time ......... till then like Bon Jovi says 'Have a nice day!"

Touching base..........

This has been an eventful week. Work has kept me busy and music has kept me going. This is probably as close as i can get to a feeling of being normal. Life has been looking good recently. My parents are happy and they let me be (which I like). Work has been of the stimulating kind. I recently got in touch with a couple of my best friends. One from Oz n the other from closer here at home. It has been a good feeling to be able to touch base with them. The one from around here is a very special friend of mine. She is one amazing person who is recuperating at the moment. It has always been a pleasure to have friends like her, the kind that you are sure will have immense goodwill going for you. It kinda makes everything fall in place if not anything else. Its such friends who will help you outta tight situation. I can safely say that such friends form a very integral part of me n they are indeed my support system, my contingency plan. Its their love and affection that I thrive on............. I have been very picky about the friends I have but im glad that i did not miss out on the ones I have. Amen to that!!
Life in a way has been quite fufilling in the past week. I have had my dose of work with that pinch of entertainment thrown in for good measure. I have interacted quiet a lot with the people I love so i have no complaints. I dont know how long this is going to last but I sure am gonna enjoy all the while it does. as for the friends i talked about just one thing to say, "You guys rock my world ........ love you guys!!"

Design is everything.............

After spending about 5years in architectural school, design seems to have caught up with me. All this while that I have been working here, Ihave worked on volumetric spatial visualisations and conceptual planning in healthcare facilities. It has been quiet a journey throughout. Whether i will continue this specialization or whether I diversify is as good a guess as anybody's. But the fact remain in the truth that i enjoy what I do to the hilt. There has been a bit is discontent in that area. I had read an article recently that 'design is everybody's'....... how true!! Everyone can design....... what we do as architects are simply implementing a vague idea of how a client would want his space to be. Thats where our creativity kicks in. But at the end of the day, all of us are on the same page.
I will probably put forth my views on this in future blogs. But for the moment here is some food for thought.............. We are all designers, in every sense of the word.